It was all so simple then...

                As I’ve wrapped up my classes for this semester and things are starting to settle a bit, I finally have a few moments to be one with my thoughts.   Hmmmm…the white noise is driving me bonkers.  I think life is easier when the noise is so loud that you are unable to hear what’s missing.  Right now, I’m sitting here reflecting on all that is missing, all that I’m not doing, …and all that I need to do.  A friend just recently posted a high school picture on FaceBook.  We were all 20 years younger, 20 lbs thinner…and 20 years less experienced.  This picture took me a back to a time where life wasn’t as complicated and there were no real decisions to be made ---except what to do on the weekends, whether to eat dinner at home or pick up fast food, who to go to the prom with, and what college to attend.  If only the decisions were that simple now.  In the words of Lauryn Hill, “it was all so simple then…!”  Who knew?  When did the inexperience and naivety of my youth escape me?  When did I become saddled with decisions, bills, and responsibility? 

                So, in the midst of my white noise…I sit and I wonder whether I can recapture just a few moments of my youth.  I know there’s no turning back the hands of time.  Therefore, as I sit here in the middle of the white noise, I’m reflecting on the happy moments of the past.  Now don’t get me wrong, I don’t want to revel in the past for too long.  I know that the future has good things to offer.  I just wish that I was able to appreciate the beauty of the simplicity of the past (at that time).  I never understood why my parents always said, “Enjoy it while you’re young…,” but now I have a complete understanding.  With that said, as I move through my present and into my future, I will be sure to appreciate all that joys, the sadness, the good times and the bad.  Because what is simple today, may not be as simple tomorrow. 

This is the She-Spot…in total reflection mode!

Love, Peace, and Empowerment!

It was all so simple then…

So Many Choices and Decisions -- Becoming an Agent of Change

It's been such a long time since I've taken the time to post.  As with anything, life gets in the way...or in the words of the commercial, "life comes at you fast."  At any rate, it has been a crazy few months...and I still am trying to figure out this life thing! 

Yet, I realize that life is mostly choices followed by decisions---good or bad.  Like many others I'm sure, I spend so much time thinking about what life has to hold for me...when in actuality, I'm just considering my choices.  Also, I've spent a great deal of time not making the best decisions or reveling in inactivity and not making a decision at all.  Life is so short, unpredictable, and undetermined.  At this point, as I'm getting older, I spend a great deal of time thinking about things I could have done differently, things I should do differently, and things I want to change.  I recognize today though that I want to make a change in my life that allows me to have the greatest impact for the the greatest good.  I would like to be an agent for change.

I recently met and have become great friends with someone who seems to understand the importance of life.  Life for him is making a contribution to society around us.  He's a person that immerses himself in the business of making the lives of others better.  His commitment to the community forced me to think  back to when I was younger and how I was much more involved in my community.  For the last few years, I would not say that I have been selfish...but I've been so consumed in the lives of the immediate people around me that I have not had anything to give to the community at large

I've been too complacent for far too long.  There are so many ways to effect change...so many people in need...so many ways to help others.  So when I think about life at this time, I know that I want a life that is more meaningful.  I choose to be the change I want to see in the world.

This is the she-spot...committing herself to good choices and becoming an agent of change!

She-Spot

Fleeting! (Love)

I’ve been thinking for a while that there are precious times in life that need to be savored like the last piece of apple pie at Thanksgiving. I’m thinking specifically about the moments when love enters your life…the moments when love has its clutches in your heart…the moments when love is all that matters.

As people, we often walk through life not appreciating these brief fleeting moments, with the thought that love will always be there…and that love knows no end. We all know that love is often taken for granted. And I wondered why?

I’m speaking of specifically relationship type love, the love between two people. I think that overall, while love can be convenient and special at the time, people in general recognize that love requires work and commitment. Like with anything that requires work and commitment, there is often a fear that exists when embarking on the newest goal. It seems to me that people see love and fear as synonymous. And that to me is sad.

I recognize that there are costs to love, but the benefits far outweigh the costs. Loving and allowing oneself to be loved allows for growth of the spirit and growth of the heart. Love is like adding a glow to an already special person or life! Love surrounds the soul and enhances the spirit. Love allows you to be open possibilities…love can put a special spring in your step…and a song in your heart. Love is unrestrained and unconfined. Most importantly, love is deserved. Everyone deserves to share a life with someone that matters. Everyone deserves to be known in a way that facilitates true openness and trust.

So today, on this rainy Wednesday, I’m pondering love. I’m thinking totally about those fleeting moments. I’m feeling grateful for the moments that I’ve experienced. I’m holding my breath, yet remaining open to my next loving moment --- where true love is shared and not reserved. If you are lucky to have love in your life at this time, hold on to it with a grasp of strength and appreciation. If you, like me, are waiting for love…be open, unafraid, and unassuming.


This is the She-Spot…feeling deeply pensive on this day!

Later!

Living beyond Mediocrity

It's been a minute since I actually put pen to paper or keys to keyboard to write something. It's amazing how life clutters your mind and prevents the creative process from happening. And what I have realized is that there will always be something that stops you from reaching your full potential. However, it is important that we all push through the difficult moments towards a life more fulfilling.

I reviewed my life recently, and realized, while I am doing fine and have minimal worries at this time...I feel like I am only just getting by. In essence, I have realized over the last few months that I am tired of just coasting through life...being mediocre.... I am deciding to be overcome mediocrity and work towards living life more richly and passionately.

Since I was ten, I have always wanted to be a writer. And while I have written regularly, I must admit that I haven't truly focused on my passion. There are several reasons why I haven't focused on writing, however, I think the greatest reason is that in order to be a writer...you have to be true to yourself and your writing must exhibit truth. Being a rather private person, it has always been hard for me to be truly honest in my writing. I've been working on that through blogging. I must admit...I've gotten better.

At any rate, I am rather unfulfilled at this time. And while there are many aspects of life you can't control, I can control the things that are important to me and those things that get my greatest attention. So, I am officially more committed to living a more fulfilled life.

And readers, I wish the same for you. Please follow your passions and live the life you were destined to live.

And that's straight out of the she-spot...Living life with passion....

The She-Spot