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Saturday, January 30, 2010

Unfortunately, Eating Crow!


Have you ever said something that you wish you could take back? You know that one thing that didn't need to be said, and isn't even what you meant, but because you were in the heat of the moment or the anguish of the minute...you said it...! It rolled out of your mouth and off of your tongue like a truck barreling down a suburban street. It was ugly; it was uncomfortable, and a bit scary.


Well, recently I said something to someone I care about a great deal. I didn't mean it...and I so wish I could take it back. And the person took it just like anyone would ...the person was annoyed, angry, and all in all pissed! The minute it came out of my mouth...I wanted to suck it back in, because the reality is what I said is not at all a depiction of what I think of this person or what this person means to me.

But as you know, you can't un-ring a bell....nor can you turn back the hands of time. So my words linger in the air like the stench of a hot summer day.

So at this point, all I can do and all I have done is apologize. I truly hope that I can rectify things. Or at least, I hope this person will realize that I am sincere and did not mean it. But I use this moment as a lesson learned...never say anything without first thinking about the consequences. And I realize that sticks and stones can break someone’s bones and words can hurt just the same!

This is the She-Spot...eating crow...and hoping she can make amends.

.....ughughugh! ------The She-Spot!

Saturday, January 9, 2010

Friday Night Love Blues --- I need to ease up on the wine!

It's less than ten days into the New Year, and I'm trying to maintain that New Year enthusiasm, at least until the end of the month :). However, I'm feeling incredibly stressed with work and life demands. And while I am sure that 2010 will offer great things to me, I am however starting off the year yearning for true love. (Singing and swaying to the tune of the Gap Band...yearning for your love...my heart is yearning for your love...)

At times in our lives, we have all had the fortune of caring deeply about someone special. However, very often we still seek space in our relationships. I am truly sitting here on a Friday night drinking a glass of vino and watching chic flicks while wishing I had someone to share my air. You know that up close and personal kind of love...the one where you feel a slight shock to your heart when the person leaves the room. I am thinking about holding someone and being enveloped in their loving hug. I am thinking about Saturday mornings in bed. I am thinking about long walks in the park...and sharing the last piece of pie. I am thinking about unconditional love.


Granted even when you are deeply in love it isn't always like this, but it is always nice to recapture the first few moments of being in love. And while I am contemplating this type of love, unfortunately I haven't had the fortune of having this type of love lately. My heart aches a bit...and I have so much love inside, it is as if I am bursting at the seams. My soul and spirit say...in due time...but my heart wants to be satisfied right now!

I think we should bag the saying the heart wants what it wants...and implement the saying..."the heart gets what it wants... ." I know that love is somewhere out there for me. I am not the most patient person, but truly this love thing or lack thereof has me unbalanced and off center. I want to bitch-slap love and get my heart in check.


I have a friend that said love comes in slow drips like a leak in a faucet versus the steady flow of a fountain. When you are fortunate enough to taste love, take each drip and let it run moistly across your lips, savor the moment with your tongue, and then let the small droplet coat the inside of your throat to begin quenching your thirst.

Ahhhh, it is Friday night...I'm home alone, and I've had one too many drinks. Love is on my mind...and my heart is up for grabs.

Happy Friday everyone...live, laugh, and embrace love!


And that's straight out of the she-spot!!!
 
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